People go 'my favourity things' or 'my ambition' or 'my family'
ME is going to go 'MY WISHLIST!'

HAHA yup, gonna list out all the things on my wishlist and see if I'll get to achieve them! (:

WISHLIST:
1. 6 A1s HAWHAW
2. A blackberry/iPhone
3. Contact lenses! YEA BABE
4. rebond my hair and cut a fringe out
5. AVIATORS
6. A dark blue maxi
7. the $59 bucks dress i saw at forever21 at 313@somerset
8. a room makeover! hehe
9. SIMPLE. to be skinner.
10. MORE MONEY so that all these can be achieved.
11. LAST ONE. for all the things on my wishlist to actually come in real life!!! (: 1:10 AM

I found a pretty dress today at Forever21. Just that it costs me S$59. ): I hope there'll be sale soon or something and that the dress wouldnt be sold out and I can lay my hands on it and exchange paper (money) at the cashier and call the dress MINE. )): i'm waiting for that day. meanwhile, i saw this shirt there as well and found it at the stores. (here for link) Oh gosh, its so pretty!
12:46 AM


All these while, I treasured every free moment I had to ponder about it, to think how God will help me out of this mess. They say that God only gives you problems that are big enough for you to solve, and wouldn't give u problems that you can't possibly manage. But hey, this problem has been weighing on my head so much, I am so tired! I want to get over this asap.
It's so frustrating, i need to voice it out. I have been trying to wait for too long, Father Abraham had to wait as well, although he thought that it was impossible. He trusted in God and it did come true, but he had to wait rather long. I am starting to doubt if i had that patience.

I want to go for church, to my sis's one cause somehow I feel the attraction to go there, like seriously. I've asked myself, there is no hidden motive in wanting to go. It's just the draw, that is making me want to go so much. The path is so bumpy, so hard. I am starting to doubt if I can even manage to go to the finishing line.

Very blatantly, I want to go church. I want my parents to approve of it and understand that it's something that cant be explained by words.
I.WANT.TO.GO.TO.CHURCH.PERIOD. I'm determined.



9:49 PM

Something seems to be weighing my heart down really badly.
Today turned out so badly and yet i seem to be able to find some things about what happened to be optimistic. I dont really see a reason why cause there seems to be no future to it.
I'm really tired, i wanna sleep soon but i dont want. cause i want to go grab a muffin (if there still is) and drink some green tea and reflect upon myself and the horrible me. But it's so fattening. Maybe just the green tea. Gulp it down.


Why must you be so distant from me?


Love, yihua. 1:10 AM

I'm feeling really horrible right now. I think I'll fall sick really soon like seriously. Dont ask me why, i have no idea as well. Maybe my body thinks that it needs a break from all the shit in the society, hence wants me to retreat and spend some quality time at home. I'm using my laptop now, feels normal just that the keyboard makes a very special type of sound, as if the buttons are really loose. My mind is kinda in a swirl.
There's this little debate in my head. There are two choices: 1. The one i like, i enjoy but it takes quite a bit of effort to achieve. 2. The one i do not wish for, the one where i do not desire for but it would be be good for me if i can do it.
I do not like option 2 at all. I HATE IT, i want number one. but its a bad choice. I dont understand. I really do not. I feel very very horrible. Forget it, may god decide for me. I hope i pick the right option and may it not be the last thing i choose and like who knows man, i pay for my decision with my life. God knows.
I'm really in a dilemma now. Everyone seems to be doing so well. I think i might just receive a horrible testimonial. Guof just reminded me that afterall, I dont have a very good testimonial. I worry for my future.

I'm carrying an inverted smile on my face. 8:24 PM

Lala i managed to get the pics from sis to post on blog (: I love the effect that her iphone has for the camera application! haha so yup haha yay i really love the effects. Anyways, updates on my life before the pictures, if you guys are not interested, just scroll down to see the pics man. But you guys are absolutely weird. -.-
Anyways, yup. My week, I predict would be very busy. Tomorrow i have peer lite refresher course which requires my presence when i dont think i would need to do much things. But still, cause of the refresher course, i would be missing my english tuition. So i have to find another day for the replacement = another day taken up. Then after tomorrow's refresher course, mum plans to bring me to go trim my hair to the length of slightly above my underarms. And after much measuring, i realise that the most golden part of my hair would be trimmed off and gone from my head! OH NO): but nvm i shall live with it and it would also stop ms lim from telling me to go dye it back (OH THE IRONY.) but yup, the agreement to trimming/cutting my hair was a part of a deal to mum allowing me to go to church. I really want to thank God for my results. I really feel like he really did do a miracle on it. I really dont think i deserve it after seeing how those professionals (guofang & sheryl) got A2. It's impossible that i would get such marks man. So yea, really wish to thank god. And i just realised that this sat is my sis's bf's birthday! How coincidental that is! I shall go get a birthday present for him to play as a good girl (: you'll see how nice he have been to me later. So yea, i get to go to church! (: which ie, i would have to replace my maths lesson ): another day taken away for my replacement. oh wells, i shall plan my time well and make every day of my life a wonderful and effective one (:

Oh wells, now for the pictures (the rush is partyly cause of my sis breathing down my neck asking me to get off her laptop, tsch)

Guess what this is! Seems so artistic eh? It's the basket that we all use to cover our food! Haha, it's an accidental shot and it turned out so nice! Really love it! :)

1:33 AM

I got a new laptop from dad on Sunday night ie yesterday. I came out from the bathroom after my bath and i noticed my sis missing from her room then i went to take a peek of my dad's room and saw my sis sitting on the floor and her face had blue light shone on it. Then i noticed on her lap there was an object that i concluded, was the source of the blue light. I wasn't wearing my specs at that point of time as i left it in the toilet. my mind had yet to work out the math yet as i stepped towards my dad's room, towards my sis. As vision became clearer to me, i realised that the object on her lap was my laptop and she was doing some things to it to assist me in setting it up for future usage! (: My dad has yet to set it up completely (which includes installing the programmes)
It's a HP laptop, black. My dad got it from Challenger. I'm so grateful for it :) and i feel like i earned it through my O level chinese results! :D
YAY me and thank God (: 11:01 PM

I said some words too late. i just wish that what i wish for would happen. as in the whole entire wish that i wished for. lala. ciao everyone. 11:14 PM

I wanna slim down, i will drink sufficient amount of water and make sure that I go running regularly and slim down and lose weight and get the right figure. As what i think i do, the others are AHEM sparingly passable AHEM so i'll leave them as it is, not like i can do anything bout it. I'll just drink carrot juice to make my eyesight better! (: Then apart from that, I'll eat lesser! YAY and i get to save money!!! YAHOO!!~ And i'll mug like mad without snacking on any type of food. Then the stress will allow me to lose weight. My aunt once told me that usually, when girls are stressed, there would be 2 paths that they'll take. First, they will either go super skinny cause of the stress or Second, they will grow super fat cause of the habit of snacking on food when they're hungry. It's a super stupid idiotic theory, my dear readers. Please do not follow it. Just leave it to me to be your guinea pig to try it out. haha so YAY awesome and i want to lose a significant amount of weight before CNY! So excited!! hahahha :D

on a sidenote:
Handsome boi. HAHA 11:22 PM

I wanted to start my year afresh. But I had three wrongly-enjoyable dreams. Gosh, what am I going to do with myself. HAHA oh wells, you irritating hamsum boi. haha
Ciao everyone! :D 6:31 PM