i realised that i hate feeling inferior and that i have a very bad character. haha as in really lah, just thinking how i should improve myself :)
Okie dokie, that's all. Just a snippet of my mind.
Went to ven's house today, she has my dream study room. I freaking hell love her study room!! lol And altogether, the day was really great :) and we made oreo cake! haha totally dont regret travelling ALL THE WAY to clementi and meet the unfriendly people. haha but yea :D


That's all, will upload those lousy quality pics another time :D
P.S.
it seems like i've always been having the wrong perception bout the people around me. 12:19 AM

I wonder what would happen when I pass on. I know that the sun would still rise, life would still go on. But would my absence cause any difference at all? What would people remember me for? The 'sponge' that I've been? That isn't really something nice to be remembered for...Would any tears be shed and would there be anything for them to use as memory? Or would memories of me only exist in their mind? Even for my closest. It's a wonder at how everything might change as time goes on. As we all know, this world doesn't function as heavily on kinship as it was in the past. Instead, now, it functions more heavily on materials, money. So, before you just shout out 'of course, one's family members would definitely shed tears', maybe we have to take another second to ponder. Maybe they will, I would not deny that. But what else would be on their mind other than the death? The money issues that would also be implemented? Some people might experience this, some might not.
I just wish to address this generally.
I'm sorry, it's just called 'emo-ing' haha cause i was coughing just now. haha okok, to you no link, to me, nothing but links! haha

Goodnight everyone :) 12:57 AM

Overwhelmed with emotions
Someday, every single one of us would experience a certain feeling that some of us would describe as 'Raging Hormones' or 'Emotional Period of Life'. I have yet to name mine. But there's one thing i'm pretty sure of, it's someting that you wont be able to figure out by yourself. It ain't something that you can solve on your own. Going to sleep helps, yea,temporarily. You are just running away from it by sleeping. The feeling, along with the memories, would just creep up to you one day once again and you would find yourself running away from it. Repeating the whole entire cycle. We all know that,only, we refuse to accept the truth. Everyone has emotions-happy,sad,anger,excitement. It is all found in us. It makes one feel vulnerable, it makes one feel horrible, angsty, rash-commiting mistakes that you can't erase off. And one mistake is by opening your mouth to say something negative to another. At that very moment that line comes out from your mouth, nothing can be done to take it back.
Basically, this period of life, no one can really describe it perfectly, right to the dot. It varies from person to person. The only similarity? It's the pain that each one of us go through, freaking hell hurts.

Today, i once again mistaken alot of people for you. They seemed to be you, donning on the same outfit, the identical walking style as you. It's all coming back. The last time i went through all this, was during the part of my life where i made mistakes cause ofyou. The period of my life where i would drop everything just to have one more second of your time. And that's all happening once again. Smiling simply when I'm talking to you although others have awent through much more trouble trying to cheer me up but failed. Why? I feel blind, i feel foolish. I'm really confused, yet, I do not know how to voice it completely out cause no matter how clear I am of my feelings right now, it never comes out right.


Disclaimer: This is not a personal post. ie, its not about me 11:31 PM

Yay!!! The photos are all up now! :) I will go event by event but i'm lazy to caption the photos unless theres a change in my mood. HEH hope you guys will enjoy it after my pain is bothering to upload everything! HAHA :D
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BLUE for Beach! HAHA
14122010 Outing comprising of 3 people: V,W,Y. hahaha

I found a website that gives Live report of the weather at Sentosa! HAHA and i checked it before leaving the house. Until now, i remember the statistics being 60% chance of raining! LOL yea, i really didn't want the outing to be destroyed and hence the efforts i went through to make sure that the weather was perfect. I even went to Google map to get a statellite image of Sentosa! haha OKOK i know it's exaggerated. BLAHBLAH , all of you will only understand if you guys put urself in my shoes and I BET CHA that you'll be worse than me! HAHA although i cant think much of what more can u do than these 2 methods. HAHA Anyways, we went to Sentosa Cove:) the OnedegreeFifteen Marina Club i think... if i didnt rmb the name wrongly. IT IS AN AWESOME PLACE! the toilet is super awesome and its so spacious! And according to sources, there's a steam bath though me and ven couldnt find it. HAHA but overall it was a really luxurious place! We saw loads of yachts there too. Basically, it was really mind blowing. Okay okay, i admit, i'm exaggerating. HAHA :p so yup, missed the bus due to misreading the bus schedule and had picnic at the club! :) on the carpet grass. It was poke-y not to mention BLACK ants crawling all over but over all, nice :) Really enjoyed myself that day :)

The lighting has been edited for this pic and I love this pics loads :) haha we look so happy and yet exhausted from the fun! haha

The two others making the sandcastle (erm more of a sand-smiley). HAHA i know i pictured this very nicely ! haha (THICK SKIN)

11:17 PM

I realised that its been ages since I updated my blog! Haha and yet i have been having such a happy life (: haha so people, do not fret, I would update and post photos up about all the happy stuff i have went to! :) you'll definitely feel my joy too! Wanna bet? haha I'm bound to win! :D
Let me have a quick check of what I must blog about:

• 03December2010 - Guofang's awesome competition! Yes I have loads of thoughts bout it. haha :D
• 14December2010 - Awesome outing @ Sentosa with company of a boy and a girl :D
• 18December 2010 - Piano Recital Competition with Venessa performing and accompanying me, Guofang :D

yup,mainly these 3 days, others are either insignificant or i really dont feel like sharing it public or I have no photos to blog with. I know how boring blog posts are without photos. haha :D

It's 3:16am and I'm rather tired and there's breakfast @ Chinatown tomorrow! Family thing :) to celebrate my sis's belated-birthday haha oh wells

But yup, I feel that I have to really change my personality. As in keep the Good, and get rid of the Bad cause the Bad is causing alot of misery ): But yup, I hope i'll be able to successfully change

Before the week ends, i hope to:

1. Set my personal, as well as, academic goals
2. Complete my Holiday Homework
3. Practice my piano and perfect my exam pieces as well as memorise the Italian terms for Piano Theory Examination coming up. Next year, on a saturday, i would be unreachable, taking piano exam.I'm scared.
4. Jote down my nightmare involving sis and try to draw it out.
5. complete my blog post

I feel really scared, really vulnerable. I don't know why. I'm really scared and I feel like crying. It's really scary but yet, I can't do anything about it.

3:06 AM

Went out with Ven on 25Nov2010 to Bishan,and waited for her for approx 45mins! haha but it was a wonderful day :D so there it goes for the pictures that I took agesss to load. teehee :)
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Ven with her oreo presents at Pizza Hut :) Melted Oreo IceBlended, Oreo Muffins, Oreo biscuit and a card :)

Hawaiian Pan Pizza with the nice dough & Soup of The day: Cream of Chicken (yummilicious)
Pizza Hut seems to have the best bread as compared to other pizza restaurants

Chicken something. It was delicious :)


12:25 AM