10:14 PM

What happens if I manage to gather my courage and tell you how I really feel? Will you reject? And what will I do if you reject? I always insist that I am able to take rejections. But am I when it comes to such sensitive issues? I don't know. It's been a year perhaps. There is one before. It occured for very long, I can't promise that I'm over it yet. But I'm sure I have a strong feeling toward you. But I have my own personal doubts. I know that one really need strong qualities before I start looking ahead of you. I'm afraid, of not only getting rejected by you, but also being afraid of not being sure of my truest feelings. Do you feel the same way? Or have that space I wish to occupy, already occupied, by someone else who have acted faster than me, not procrastiniating. I can't help to worry, it happened before, and it took months to get over it. I can imagine the blissful image of us, but I can never imagine the image of you saying 'no' to me...
Show me, more clearly please. Or have you already shown me just that... I was in denial hence not playing deaf. and blind.

Love is blind, isn't it? Especially when it's only coming from me. 9:53 PM

Everest "death zone" set for a spring clean up( click for article linked)
For some reason, i felt very heart-warming tt someone on this earth is actually doing something to help. not saying that no one have been doing that, but everytime i read something similar, i'll just smile and have the urge to say a hearty "Good job" to the person.
Don't you feel the same way??? ((:

Apple engineer loses iPhone prototype( click for article linked)
Yea sure we should go light on the guy who lost the prototype guy. But imagine losing something you created with loads of challenges midway. I doubt you'll let the guy off easily. I guess he should have known how important and major is the prototype and should not touch any alcohol at all. If he gets beaten up and loses the prototype, then it's not so much of his fault then. But i think in this case, I dont think I'll stand on the guy's side. I'll stand on Apple's. It's their prototype that they spent money on. It's their product, being leaked. Ow. 11:53 PM

Your love is like heroin. You didn't do anything to get me addicted to it. It's just the properties/characters that you possess that is drawing me to you.
The worst part of it all? It's not mutual. Heroin does not like you, it's just there. You submitted youself to it. Just like how you simply existed but my heart decides to yearn for you.

❤yihua 11:49 PM

The tooth fairy teaches children that they can sell body parts for money.
—
David Richerby

How's life? After the clock strikes 12am, it's valid to say tt common test starts tomorrow.
It's really stressing out all the teachers and students.
Teachers rush through their work, in attempt of completing the chapters tested. Students ask questions, Teachers replies by saying "meet me outside after lesson to clarify".
Yea, its good that the teachers bother to answer some of our questions however, what bout those who dont even understand the chapter? How do you expect them to ask in the very first place? ZZ
Yea, i can't completely blame the teachers, the students should do their job too by revising their work. But dear teachers, please tell ur students what chapter you'll move on to tomorrow so that we can go and read up first.
Why must commontest start so early in the first place? Spare me the reasoning bout how they want to prepare us for the OLevels which have been pushed earlier. What bout giving me new reasons?
I know i'm being very unfair to the teachers but this is how i feel currently. Maybe I will change my perceptive some other day. 11:44 PM

You have a banana peel in your hand
You start to look out for me.
You walk ahead of me, I am the one
Who swallows up all ur rejects.
You most probably do not even
Notic e my absence and presence.
What am I but to contain
Not your joys and excitement and sorrow
But someone who helps to clear you
of your trash.
By being ur trashbin.
-by Yours Sincerely,
me (a-stalk-there) 11:34 PM

I think alot of people hate me for quitting the drill competition. Geraldine today called me the 'person who quitted the drill competition'. I guess they'd all hate me and blame me. The reason they think i quit is preferably cause it was v. tiring for me and that i rather study and not spend time on doing drill. I guess its more like I felt that my drill was really poor and if i joined the drill competition, I would most probably pull the whole contingent down. I felt like I was the one in the contingent who was performing really badly and I felt the glares of everyone when I did something wrongly. Sigh, preferably I'm not doing them justice and I'm being too sensitive. Maybe they are much nicer than I think. Sigh, this post shall be deleted soon. I just need to get it off my chest. 11:27 PM


Hello everyone. Random post, photos to guide u along (:
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It's yinkai's bday on saturday. (:
Called her at 12am to wish her! XD haha hope she had a happy birthday this year and maybe it be a special one for her
Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to Yinkai, Happy birthday to you(:

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As usual, lessons were boring. Hence me and my dear partner decided to play alil. Come on. Students' lifestyles consists of both fun and study.HEHE yup, that's two heartshape on her eyes. Don't ask me why is the green one slanted. Maybe she has slanted eyes :o
Anyway, if the colour of this photo seems weird, The photo is edited cause the actual one was too dark.

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10:06 PM






11:27 PM

Interesting facts for you guys out there.
Dehydration
Sweating is the way in which the body maintains its core temperature at 37 degrees centigrade. This results in the loss of body fluid and electrolytes (minerals such as chloride, calcium, magnesium, sodium and potassium) and if unchecked will lead to dehydration and eventually circulatory collapse and heat stroke. The effect of fluid loss on the body is as follows:

• 2% body weight lost as sweat→Physiological effect: Impaired performance
• 4% body weight lost as sweat→Physiological effect: Capacity for muscular work declines
• 5% body weight lost as sweat→Physiological effect: Heat exhaustion
• 7% body weight lost as sweat→Physiological effect: Hallucination
• 10%body weight lost as sweat→Physiological effect: Circulatory collapse and heat stroke

Isotonic drinks:
Isotonic - quickly replaces fluids lost by sweating and supplies a boost of carbohydrate. This drink is the choice for most athletes - middle and long distance running or team sports. Glucose is the body's preferred source of energy therefore it may be appropriate to consume Isotonic drinks where the carbohydrate source is glucose in a concentration of 6% to 8% - e.g. High Five, SiS Go, Boots Isotonic, Lucozade Sport.

Dental health
Sports drinks commonly contain citric acid. All acids have an erosive potential but the method of drinking will influence whether or not those acids affect the teeth. Sports drinks should be consumed as quickly as possible, preferably with a straw and not be held or swished around the mouth. Retaining drinks in the mouth will only increase the risk of erosion. Refrigerated drinks will have a reduced erosive potential, as the acid dissolution constant is temperature dependant.

Hope you guys found this information useful. HAHA thought this really helped in how i managed the food/drinks that i consume.

Ciao everyone, hope you had a great day

(:

1:59 AM

Today maths t was talking to me. private one to one talk. Wanted to die. lesson ended at 6.45,talk ended at 7.15. I can't sit with Ven anymore. D: She calls it self discipline. She wants me to become more selfish, to have more mind-of-my-own.She wants me to earn the trust back from mum.She wants me to ... ... ... ... study and have more responisibilty, interest. I'm sorry, i'll try. success not guaranteed.
I'm a failure. she talked to me, said how she would like me to open up more to her. Then she asked me, did you have any problems? "No." I just failed in one aspect she wished i would fulfil. To open up to her. "No." was the only answer I could give her, Sure i could give her a 'yes' but ever wondered what would happen then?

I must study, I definitely must study. Who doesn't know tt? I have to study till I die. Cause, that's how i earn money, to fulfil my desires. My materialistic desires. Nah, IN THIS WORLD, my mental needs are no longer important, warned not to be surfaced, to be hidden and thrown in the darkest corner on earth, darkest and deepest corned in my heart. 10:13 PM

I totally hate it, when I was suppose to be early and everyone arriving punctually, BUT YET, on the day itself, everyone's early and i'm the late one.

So today this situation happened on me.

Supposed to be at united sq to study at 2-4. no one could company me, so
didnt go early. at 3.30, L called.missed e call. received sms from L asking me
where am i, to study with him. reply:At home, going now.
At 3.40, received sms from Y, "hey,L is at united sq.go and study with him
first ba. later then i go"or smth like tt.i was kinda getting frustrated of
myself.time seemed to have suddenly became my enemy,everything went so
slowly,everyone moved so slowly.
at 3.50, V smsed me tt she's coming early. LIKE WTH, SEE WHAT I MEAN BY
EVERYONE'S EARLY WHEN I'M NOT!!!
then at 4.10, W called meto ask where am i. he sounded sad, increase
my intolerance with everyone's speed.

It is in such situations where everything started moving so slowly, u just wished tt you could like control the speed of everyone or at least make them get off your path.Argh, i bet everyone had such an experience before. I just cant stand it when i nid to rush. Argh
I bet next wk, i'm early and everyone's late -.- Thanks.Really appreciate it. 9:55 PM

As the title says it all. yup.

1. Imagery Faded Midnight
2. 20 My Trivial Life Replica-Factory
3. winterdreams; ++dreamm.*

Yup, go view them and tell me which of them is your favourite choice at my tagboard ((:

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12:19 AM

The issue regarding the China Twinning trip is boggling me. Money, Accommodation, Roommate. Can't tolerate it much longer. It's hanging on my mind for just too long, occupies just too much space, interrupting my life just too much.
I hate such troubles. 4:57 PM

Hey people, quite some time since I blogged and successfully posted it up. Most of the times I would start my post, then get distracted by something else, and not complete the blog post altogether. So yup, I'll blog now while watching youtube vid. HAHA, why the hell am I providing u such useless information that you would most probably not be bothered to read? -.-
So yup. I want to try baking meringues / Chocolate Lava Cake / Strawberry Shortcake. HAHA you may now go all "HUH?! WTH?!" *After a few seconds* Done? I shall just assume you are done.

Anyway, Drill on tuesday was horrible.Hantak for ~whew~ super long. I will try to understand why did my amazing seniors do such a horrible treat to us, after all I assume tt they love us. ( OH PLEASE! )
Literature's testing on poems for term 2. I dont know what to say. I view poems in a very grave way. A poem bout how we eat pigs and every single part of it could be interpreted by me into a poem t is trying to bring out the message that we humans are hopeless and disgusting. I dont know man. My Teacher said tt this is not going to lead me to a place with high marks but average. Come on, What's wrong with my brain?!
Chemistry is like French and Spanish and Arabic to me all combined together. I understand nothing about it except water is H2O. come on, where is my H20 going to lead me to?! Mum suggested I drop chem. Sorry mum, I adapted to the world we live in, i'm nt gonna drop chem.
Bio is with enzymes. Something much more useful than chemistry. I dont understand why must we learn chemistry. Not like every single student is going to grow up as a chemist.
Dear education system, we students have our dreams. Can we dont sit exams to get to our dreams and learn subjects that are not going to aid us in our dreams?
Maybe I'm blabbering off like an ignorant child but take a survey and see how stress the current kids are. How they dread exams. I can't shout out anymore, the heads still wont take any moves. 2:29 PM