Am I suppose to gulp down one big spoon of sugar before I go to school, so that people will start accepting me for who I am?
I grew up with my mum telling me that an empty vessel makes the most noice, ie to talk less. So i guess i grew up with lil words, and that, from what I am experiencing right now, sucks.
It's so hard to get accepted, no matter how much I try to be some super nice person, accepting others and not showing my feelings to them, I become someone invisible, someone who is taken for granted. But if I am someone who shows my feelings, I become someone who would be avoided by others. I don't understand what is keeping me in such a state. Perhaps, I'm trying too hard.
I do not really know, but the smiles seem so fake nowadays, something that cannot be treated seriously anymore, cause it's all fake. I remember times in primary schools, where we would tell each other things like "I don't like you, i dont want to be your friend anymore." Well, hurtful yea but at least you get the truth and everything is sincere and not backstabbing and all.


It's kinda tiring and I find myself questioning myself everyday, trying not to step on anyone's toes, but I find my toes bruised from all the others stepping on mine but the thing is, they dont seem to notice or care.
No one can choose their fate, can they. No it aint a question, not anymore. 11:33 PM

I wanna bake cupcakes for
Guofang, Limwei, Venessa, Xinyi, Shannon, Sheryl, Regina and my family members :)
I will personalise every single one of them with fondant and buttercream and icing.
I hope I succeed. I can't seem to be able to solve the problem of not having food colourings and not wanting to buy a BIG bottle of food colourings despite only going to use maybe a drop or less. Maybe someone can be nice enough to spare me? HEH
can't wait to make these cupcakes :D maybe one with white background and use chocolate to use as icing to draw elegant designs.Black against white. I hope the exams end soon, then I'll be able to fulfill my dreams soon :D
The wait is killing me. 10:24 PM